Level 2/ Day 15

(Late Post)
Level 2/Day 15

Monday February 15th

Well it is leaving day, these days are never good days, it is a day of holding back tears, trying to get in as many hugs and kisses before it is time to head to the airport. These days NEVER get easier, you never get used to saying good bye. It’s just draining, emotionally. My heart hurts thinking about it. I’m not even going to lie I cry from the moment I walk away from him, until I am home. I try to force myself to sleep on the flight, but it is hard. This trip just, didn't seem long enough. And my heart hurts thinking about how long it will be until our next visit.

Kiel made me breakfast in bed, he made my delicious cream of wheat with strawberry and peaches. My favorite.

We went out to a Thai/Chinese restaurant for lunch by his house so we could go back and lay down and cuddle for an hour before I had to leave.

This is so crappy, I am so tired of the distance, and leaving him. Sometimes the military really does suck, especially on days like this.
After all evening of flying, I finally got home... my car unfrozen from the economy parking lot. Thank God I was able to catch a bus (quickly) from Delta terminal, unlike having to walk the three miles, like I did when I parked there to make my flight.

I can't believe all the snow PA got, I haven't seen this much snow since 2007. I had trouble finding a place to park since my parking lot is a mess with all these snow piles. I got home took care of my babies, and then did Shred, Level 2. Honestly I wanted to cry the whole time. The only thing on my mind was Kiel and how much I miss him.
I figured if I got anything from this workout hopefully it would be tiredness. I hate sleeping alone, not having his arms around me. I love waking up to him kissing me.

I don’t understand how couple allow themselves to lose that spark, I long for his touch ever night before I go to bed. I cant imagine us not being so in love… He is my other half.

I did not eat dinner, I snaked on some naked almonds on my way home, didnt have much of an appetite.