Level 2/ Day 17

Well I couldn’t fall asleep at all last night, which resulted in me sleeping half my day away. I planned on writing my paper all day but that didn’t happen; thought about it a lot but didn’t get motivated enough to finish it.

I was talking to Kiel around 11, laid in bed watching The Breakup eating a small bowl of cream of wheat with strawberries until I finally got a spark to clean my room, put all my clothes away, unpack my suit case, my room was feeling cluttered… that turned into a whole house cleaning. Now my house is pretty much spot-less; I just have to mop the floors tomorrow.

I went to Walmart around 2:30 to get some odd and ends to finish cleaning, and some food for the week. I stopped and went tanning on the way home; short therapy session. haha I got home, I put my stuff away, filled my fish tank, and cleaned out my fridge.

I did Level 2 / Day 17.
My arms are totally DEAD haha, even with the three pound weights; she just kills my arms! I am feeling better my body is getting stronger, I am sore all over during the workout.

So this topic of lent has been on my mind all day, well I guess it started last night..
Ash Wednesday starts the beginning of lent, the 40 days leading up to Easter; the Resurrection of Jesus Christ.
It was discussed in my class last night, all of the things people are giving up; i.e. steak, dessert, Internet at home, and so on. All of these things; the people giving them up are truly passionate about.
Lent is supposed to represent the forty long days, that Jesus spent in the desert, where he endured temptation by Satan.

I truly don’t know anything I am truly so passionate about that would suffice to “a sacrifice” to give up. I think the 30 day Shred has made me realize a lot.. I am so "time oriented" due to being in the military but when it comes to my "real life" I have no concept of "time management." ...When I am discourage and don't want or feel like doing the workout I convince myself by saying "it is only 20 minutes"...

So I pondered the thought of instead of giving something up; maybe “start something”. I thought about starting to go back to church on Sundays. I have not been a practicing Catholic, Christian, or anything in some time, I have had mixed feelings about the church. Other then my wedding day. I am not sure if I want to go back to the Catholic Church though, I may look into services in my area; I have until Sunday to decide… It is something I have been thinking about for some time, but always seem to make excuses when Sunday rolls around. Everything in my life is going so great, but maybe I am missing spiritual peace. My mother was a very religious person and I know it would mean a lot to her. But this is something I want to do for myself, and my future family.

Other than that, for now, I guess I will conform to everyone else’s generic sacrifice; No Fast Food, Deep Fried foods. I love happy meals, they make me happy. So-long! For 40 days!

I had a nectarine for a snack since it was almost dinner time; I made some Tuna Helper (No meat today!)
Kiel even joined in the Lent celebration and didn’t eat meat today and gave up something; he is not a very religious person, but me being raised Catholic I still like to follow my parents and families teachings of religion. It makes me happy to know Kiel is okay with everything, and usually goes along with things; with me.

Well I am off to watch some tv. : )